The 12-year "anti-war" with my mother-in-law has finally ended

At this moment, I thought: Why do I have to seize the favorable situation of others and external things to make myself feel safe?In fact, our hearts are inherently complete.After learning the Twelve Relationships, I went to Kyoto, Japan alone to visit a temple, just like someone was accompanying me.I clearly realized that the infinity of not loneliness comes from the inner self and there is no need to ask for it from the outside world.And when I feel empathy for those who suffer, I also experience the kind of compassion for temporarily forgetting myself, the kind of full of emotion.These are all real.Thinking like this, I slowly walked out of my own emotions, and then felt the dullness and joy of life, continued to do what I should do, treated adversity calmly, and had the power to diverge to pay attention to others.

Because I have had depression experience, I can use empathy to feel the psychology of those who are in the same situation.I found that more and more people around me were suffering from such psychological torture, which was really heartbreaking.I vow to slowly integrate Buddhism into my life and work to help these people who fall into the trap of their minds, many of them are young people like me.

However, I completely stopped depression until I entered the academy. Because of the clear and interlocking three-level practice and the warm atmosphere of my fellow practitioners, I kept my heart away from loneliness.I have developed great faith in the Buddha, in the mentor, and in the fellow practitioners.This gave me the greatest sense of security.My mood and interpersonal relationships have changed drastically. I am no longer afraid of loneliness, and no longer need to capture other people's affirmation to enhance my self-confidence.I am no longer afraid of getting along with others, but instead have more energy to care about others and convey positive energy.In many groups in life and work, I have become a favorite member of everyone.My friends all say I love to laugh.

Keywords: Ksitigarbha Sutra

Reward

Now, my classmates when I was a child have started their families and careers. When I saw me again, they all said that I have become much more sensible and have changed a lot.I am very grateful for the experience of studying in Beijing. It is the loneliness and pain that forced me to find the answer.By confiding with various people, teachers, senior sisters, and husband who was still boyfriend at the time, they later found a psychologist who was more expensive than once to consult.Finally, after volunteering to paint Guanyin statues, I met Buddhism.

Thank you Buddha, thank you mentor, thank you fellow practitioners, and my mother’s pull.Deeply believing in cause and effect is really the most basic concept of all Buddhist practitioners.Thank you for meeting Buddhism. I think there is nothing more important in this life than working hard to understand the reality of all dharmas.